Friday, May 30, 2008 ; 10:21 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Finally , its Friday , which means I have 2 weeks of NO SCHOOL. =D
but i still have a mountain pile of homework left to finish , so my holiday cant really be considered a holiday at all.
I was watching the Sichuan Earthquake Charity Show on youtube , and I left really really sad when I saw what the people over there were going through. In Singapore , earthquakes and other natural disasters dont happen , yet we are still not contented. I have everything I need , but I still complain like theres no tomorrow. And I realised that compared to other people who are homeless , and fighting to survive , I just cant thank God enough for giving me a safe place to live in. From now on , I shall learn to be contented with what I have , and not ask for so much anymore. =D
Today was the last episode of the 9oclock show. I forgot the name , but I think it is Bian Zou Qu or something. I like the general plot of the story , and its really unique , something I never saw before on TV or in storybooks. And I find the message behind the story really impactful too. How I never fail to treasure stuff until they are gone. And how much I will regret it after that. Another learning point , treasure everyone and everything around me , starting from now on. =D
On a last note , I promise to study hard and buck up on my studies , and make full use of this June holidays. I will not play as much as I normally do , and I will devote my time to studies. Most importantly , I WILL PASS AMATHS.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008 ; 8:20 PM♥
LOVE.<33
I should be doing Geog corrections instead of blogging here. But I am really tired of doing geog. Did it the whole day , and I really dunno how to do alot of questions. She's probably going to kick me out of class or smth tomorrow. But I dont really care. And theres 2 hours of geography tmr. Really dreading it lah. ): Anyway , I was supposed to blog about something , but I forgot. I feel terrible now , because of alot of things. And I really hate to add on to other's problems. Ever since young , I've had many bad experiences , but up till now , I cant seem to stop being a problem to other people. And everytime that happens , I feel really horrible and bad. I dont know how to solve the problem. Whats more , Im listening to an emo song now. And makes me feel even worse , but its nice and i cant stop listening. Dont ask me why.
Kk , let off 10% of my frustration , shall go TRY to complete the geog corrections , which i highly doubt is possible to do by tonight. Bye. ): (: ): (:
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you,
Over again
Dont make me change my mind.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008 ; 6:53 PM♥
LOVE.<33
NO.MORE.CHINESE.=Dfor this whole year at least.
I can say that Chinese O levels was quite easy compared to Midyears and Prelims. I just hope i wasnt too careless and made too many mistakes , cos i really want that A1 =D
anyway , its over , shall not brood over it anymore! =DDDDDDD
The school should seriously give us time off to study by ourselves , and have a longer break. I know its our crucial year this year , but extra lessons and coming back to school during the holidays make me more tired and grumpy , and as a result I'll have no more motivation to study anymore at the end of school time. ):
Yesterday was Jolene's graduation from SOLEAD(?)! and we went to attend her graduation ceremony. she looked so pretty k! CONGRATULATIONS JOLENE FOR GRADUATING! =DDD Shine for the Lord always k , and faithful-nest loves you! <33333
I did something productive today! I studied , okay more of like did afew maths questions from TYS for tuition homework. Teaecher said do as much as i want/can. And since my target is to finish the Emaths TYS by August , I might as well start now so I can complete it earlier!
And whenever I remember that I have not started on geography corrections at all , I just feel sad all over again. Someone's making me hate geography alot , and I just have no motivation to start on the corrections. But I'll do them , for MY sake and not just cause someone asked us to do it. =.= I have not mentioned any names here , so dont assume the person im talking about is you. (:
Kk , I shall go do more Emaths. (((((:
Saturday, May 24, 2008 ; 7:30 PM♥
LOVE.<33
HELLO EVERYONE!i am finally back , with a brand new keyboard.
my keyboard has been spoilt for the past 4 days , and CLICKING the online keyboard was irritating. how i love typing so much more than clicking! =DDDD
anyway , i got back my MYE results yesterday. Mummy went to see Mdm Chan , but i didnt go , cos i was sick yesterday. So i didnt get to hear what Mdm Chan actually said to my mother , but i think my parents are disappointed with me all the same. Ohwell , at least i improved slightly since last year , I'll just have to put in ALOT more effort for prelims and olevels! ):
Chinese O levels are in two days , and i have been doing chinese nonstop for the past few days. I cant believe myself , but I have to do it. ): after the next 2 days , i will be CHINESE FREE! =DDDD so i guess its worth it. (:
and my parents went for the hillsongs concert , and i am stuck at home cos i havent really fully recovered yet. ):
my mum told me the songs are very upbeat and her heart is beating fast. LOL. okay , i have nothing more to say i think. =D shall go do more chinese. BYE! (:
I LOVE MY KEYBOARD! <3333
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 ; 8:30 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Now I know , to forget something/someone is really really hard. It takes so much effort , but I'm determined to forget! Yay yay yay , I'm high now.
I thank God for helping me improve on my Emaths! =D From 50+ last year to a 71 this MYE. I know I haven't met my expectations yet , but there'll be other chances. And I really thank God for this not-bad mark. =DD
Tomorrow , we're getting back amaths , and combined sciences. I dont really have confidence that I'll do well for any of the papers. I just hope I pass these 3 subjects , because I studied hard for them. =/
Okay , anyway , haha , Desiree is high now , she shall not let any sad thing get in her way.
Shoo , all you bad things , I'm trying to be optimistic now. (:
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 ; 2:42 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Today , I realised I could have not gone to school , because we practically did NOTHING there. =.= I cant believe how inefficient the school is , but its no surprise to me. Shall not brood over it anymore. Anyway , I have been visiting this website , and I think it confirms how much I wna be an animal volunteer next time to help the animals around. Firstly , I cant imagine how people could be so irresponsible to throw their pets away once they get sick of them , just like trash. Animals have a life too , and even though they may be small , cant talk , cant express their feelings like we do , they have a life and they certainly do not deserve to be unfairly treated. Everytime I read cases of animals being abadoned in the middle of nowhere , and because of one small irresponsible act of the owners , they get attacked and eventually die. Sure , they may be cute when they are young , and thus people buy them on impulse just because theyre cute and adorable. When they grow old , people no longer find them cute and just dump them as and when they want. This hurts me so much everytime i read about it. Animals have a life , and what's more , they didnt do anything to offend us in any way. They rely on us to survive , and all they really want is a proper , good and loving home. But , sometimes we cant even give them that.
HRSS.net , the website I've been going to. Go to the thread where there are news of rabbits being abandoned in the cruel-est ways ever. and when I saw the pictures and read the stories , my heart seriously ached like mad.
This bunny , Miracle , was the first bunny i think i ever literally cried for even though I;ve never seen her in person. And everytime I go to that page , I'll start crying and crying , so if you dont really wna see it , dont go to the link. http://www.hrss.net/forum/viewtopic.php?t=2235 <- this link.
Anyway , even though nearly no one reads this blog anymore , I just wna prove my point that animals DO have a life , and I seriously object to them being treated like rubbish. If you cant commit to a pet in the first place , then dont have one. For now , I shall try to help these pets in any way I can. My mom told me to give it up , that I cant do much for them , but if everyone thinks the same way as me , then I'm sure pets wouldn't have to suffer for nothing at all.
I sound like a campaigning person , but if you think I'm not making sense here , the red 'X' is in the top right hand corner of your screen. (:
And I hope this post wasn't too long winded or offended anyone. (:
Monday, May 12, 2008 ; 2:35 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Yesterday was GDOP , and it was aweesomeee. Before GDOP , I met Eunice. And the time was really well spent , i realised i havent really been talking to her much , but yesterday , i told her everything that was troubling me , and i feel so carefree now. I LOVE EUNICE , thanks for listening to me. =D
GDOP made me realise many stuffs. That God is always beside me , and He's the only one that loves me so much , even though I forget Him and disappoint Him all the time , Hes still there , and He still loves me all the same. I've not been a good christian all this while , and I really think I've drifted away from God alot. Yesterday , it was just talking to Him about eveyrthing that was bothering me , and He spoke to me. He said ' Dont worry about anything , for I am with you. ' and He told me to forget all my worries and troubles , because in the first place they weren't troubles to begin with.
So now I've decided to give up something really precious to me. And no , its not what you think it is. I guess even though it'll take a long time , I'll be able to do it , because God can do anything but fail. And I'm sure He'll pull me through this time.
All the stuffs i came to know about , it caused me to fall deeper and deeper , until i kept telling myself I could never get out of it no matter how hard I tried. Im giving up not because I think theres no way out , Im giving up because I want to put my mind on other more important stuffs , but most importantly because I know God will see me through this and I should give Him the unconditional love that I've been keeping from Him all this while.
So no matter how many tears I have to cry or how much heartaches I have to experience during this period of time , I'll do it all the same , because I know forgetting will be the best thing that I can do for myself. (:
This is not meant to be an emo post , haha , in fact it has cleared all I'm worrying about previously. And I'm so amazed at how God can do wonders (:
Saturday, May 10, 2008 ; 8:35 PM♥
LOVE.<33
I know You've washed me white ,Turned my darkness into light.
MYES ARE OVER! (:
even though theres prelims and Olevels coming up , i shall take this time to rest alittle before attempting to work hard again. =D
anyway , these few days have been fine.
Yesterday , VCDsquared went blading at pasir ris park! vanessa didnt blade , but she was a great help to me ! and i think 90% credit goes to her that i only fell once the whole time. =D thanks vanessa!
Today there was service and cell group. and I am ever amazed at how splendid God is. and I've made up my mind to stop worrying about everything that's going on around me.
Worship made me think about this whole week . How I had my own fair share of good times and bad times. How happy i felt when God showed me how the people around me loved me so much , when I attempted to study this once for MYEs , when I felt Him there with me all the while.
Also , there were bad things. How confused i felt over some stuff , the nightmares and bad dreams that I had when I was napping and sleeping. It was so terrible I cried. But I straightened out my thinking on many many good and bad stuff.
Cell was about hearing God speaking to you. And I realised all this while, I've just been praying , and not listening to what God has to respond to me. I always felt that God didnt understand me , that He left me alone to struggle with my own problems. But now I know that Hes always been trying to respond , just that I didnt give Him a chance to. Just now , we sang East to West during cell group worship. And I was reminded how God died for us , to set us free. And I couldn't thank Him enough. God's love is just too magnificent to comprehend , and I'm glad to receive His love.
Anyway , from now on , im just gna cast all my worries upon Jesus , and have faith that He'll see me through everything. No more worrying unecessarily, no more complaining , no more feeling inferior to others , nothing more. Just God's love for me , its more than enough. Thank You Lord. (:
And , did i mention , I am high now! =D =D =D
Monday, May 05, 2008 ; 6:59 PM♥
LOVE.<33
I shall blog before I go and study chemistry. My brain is half-stoned now because i did amaths for 6HOURS. I have never even studied for that long in my life , but i managed to do it today. Thank you God (:
I keep thinking about what I am going to do after MYEs. i know i should study still because Olevels aren't over until another 6 months or so , but a short period of time of relaxation is always good for the body too right? =P
Somehow saying this , i keep thinking of the times when i used to stay up late doing nonsense , like chatting with random people online and reading nonsense storybooks. Like how i was so free to sleep at 4am eaech night , and wake up LATEEEE in the afternoon after that. that feeling is so shiok lahhhh.
and i really cant wait until i can really slack and stone and be happy doing the things i LIKE instead of things that i NEED to do .
okay i know i am spewing rubbish , because my brain is seriously too tired to comprehend sentences. i shall go and read chemistry now cos the only thing i know about it is moles.
BYE! (:
doiloveyouordoiloveyou?=S
Sunday, May 04, 2008 ; 8:05 PM♥
LOVE.<33
YO!i survived a week of exams! and i seriously think i have never studied or read my books so thoroughly before. normally , i wouldn't even have bothered to even look at my books or notes . but this time round , im like able to sit for 4 hours ( my maximum for now =P ) straight and actually STUDY. and i know this is not by my own strength , but by God's. and He's the reason why im studying so hard in the first place. so that I can glorify Him with my results , but most importantly , i know that I've tried my best no matter what.
so the subjects left are half of geography , history , combined sciences and AMATHS. i have been practising so much amaths that i neglected my emaths and geography. i badly badly badly want to do well for amaths , but for now i shall aim for a pass first. (:
My chinese is doomed. i actually wrote out of point for compo. The topic was about hostels , but guess what. i mistook it for camping =.= . i feel so silly , and i think i really need to improve on my chinese. because o level chinese papers are like 3 weeks away (!!!!) and my average grade is still C. ahhhhh.
Okay , i still have one more chapter of history to cover , and its the cold war. all i can think of now is stalin , hitler , TOV , japan and GreatDepression. i hope i do well for history!
I have realised that God has placed so many people that love me into my life. Like how i sometimes forget His kindness and take for granted the people around me. Wanxin buddy actually gave up her whole of tomorrow to revise amaths with me! and i cant thank her enough. THANKS BUDDDDDDDDDY! <33333.>
and God has given me my parents , whom i get angry with ocassionally , but in the end , i know they love me alot. how my mother nags at me every single day , but when im studying and being stressed up , she'll buy me nice food (B&J!) and try to crack jokes to make me happy. and how my dad behaves like a kid just to make me laugh. i love them both so much. MUMMYANDDADDY ILU! <333>
THANKYOUGOD for eevrything that You have blessed and provided me with. i really really appreciate it , and this has motivated me to work even harder.
I shall go finish cold war now , and i cant wait for MYES to end. =DDDD
ohhh,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA AND NATASHA <333.
