the sweetest love story ever. ((:

Thursday, August 30, 2007 ; 8:56 PM♥

LOVE.<33

i didnt go to school today! yesterday , already started having terrible headaches. this morning , it was quite bad. so i was absent from school on the last day of the term! excluding tomorrow , becauseits teacher's day celebration. i just pray that everything will go fine tomorrow , and there will be no screwups. i have to wake up at SIXoclock. SIX OKAY! 6.30 already i have a hard time waking up , i dont know how im going to wake myself up tomorrow. oh well.
yesterday we had teacher's day celebration for laoshi! after school , me and vanessa went to find a cake , and we bought this super duper cute chocolate cake. it had faces on it. =D and guess what! i finally ate my strawberry ice kachang(?) after 2 years. it really really brings back memories la. =DDDD
CCA , i dont know la. somehow , i dunno why im really not in the mood to go for CCA anymore. everytime , i try to set a good example for the juniors and all , but i end up failing. then i'll start feeling bad , and in the end , i just cant be bothered anymore. i'm aware of the stress all the committee members have. its always like this. there'll always be one problem after another. all i can do is pray that everything will be fine once more. at least this september holiday , i can spend my time sorting out everything. yeaaa.

OHOH. and my brother is leaving for shanghai in about 1hour's time! im going to miss him. no one to argue with and complain to. even though i know he'll never read this , TAKE CARE AND REMEMBER TO BUY ME BACK STUFF OKAY DARIUS LEE. =D yep. i shall end here ah. nothing more to say. (:

Tuesday, August 28, 2007 ; 10:09 PM♥

LOVE.<33

its the start of the week already , and i guess its spoiled already. i just didnt know what i did for this to happen man. i just cannot do geography. i dunno why. all the tests i do , i either do really badly or fail. i really really dont know whats wrong with myself. i dont understand why i cannot pass when others find it so easy to. and now , my report cards for the next term and the current one are going to have a red mark there already. and i dont know what my parents are going to say. hai. all the small problems , resurfacing again. ):
okay , i shall not be so emo la. i dont want to be. geography's notebook due on thursday , and im not even done with it yet. have to stay up late today and tomorrow to finish it already la. woo. today had teacher's day rehearsal. super tiring. but , it gave me LOTS of time to think about certain things. and i think i've more or less sorted them out already. im just gonna ignore the problem , and let nature take its course. everything that is supposed to happen , will happen in time to come. so i will not worry so much anymore. =DD
ahh. i dont know what im typing uh. going to study for geography standard test already. BYE! =DD

Thursday, August 23, 2007 ; 8:47 PM♥

LOVE.<33

TOMORROW IS FINALLY FRIDAY! =D
this whole week was full of tests. and I PASSED MY AMATHS TEST AGAIN! im so happy okay! =DD
yesterday , we did scrapbooking for english. ms tan told us to make a page about our childhood. we're going to continue doing tomorrow! its really fun la! and i stood for 1 whole hour during geography today. stupid me did not bring the map down for geog lesson , and in the end , ms lim only used it for a few minutes at the end la! super wasted. and all along it was in class! theres geography homework which i have no idea how to start. i hate reading topo maps! gives me headaches okay. somemore the map is so big! it like covers my whole table? haha!
im so excited , because the september holidays are coming! like in one more week! time flies super fast okay! then after holidays , it would be EOYs soon. then EOY holidays , can PLAY!!! okay i dont know why im so high now!
i surprisingly had more or less no problems this week! its really rare okay! and im really soso happy! my brain is like not painful anymore! and i dont think of that problem so regularly anymore! so , im a happy girl for the time being. (:

Sunday, August 19, 2007 ; 7:52 PM♥

LOVE.<33

FAITHFUL-NEST WON! CHAMPIONS FOR SWORD EXCHANGE! we did it! all glory unto God , yea? =DDDDD
and so , we had a party yesterday. with so much FOOOD. (: but i wasnt that hungry , and i ate abit only. so wasted! haha. and we were trying to solve jokes too. I MANAGED TO SOLVE 3 okay! when rubez took a super super super long time to figure out all. actually , she figured out one by herself , but it was because i told her the answer! and we talked and laughed like siao. i was quite frustrated , because everyone seemed to know all the jokes , but i didnt get it! yea , so yesterday was fun. =DDD

and i have to study like mad this whole week! theres tests every SINGLE DAY. from monday to friday. how great la. on monday , theres amaths test which was postponed from friday. on tuesday , theres chemistry test. wednesday , social studies standard test. thursday , emaths journal writing test and friday , history test.
okay im gonna be killed. i barely started studying. im stuck copying geography notes. cos must rearrange the notebook all over again. AISH. okay. all the best to me again. =D

Wednesday, August 15, 2007 ; 8:47 PM♥

LOVE.<33

i seem to be getting more and more emo each day. ARRRRRGHGHG. i hate feeling like this. my mother is shouting at my brother now. i wonder whats her problem. she just cant give him a break la. hes putting in so much effort already. and she keeps saying he'll turn out to be a gangster and all. no wonder hes so vulgar and rude. i just wish she could be more understanding to us la. if shes not shouting at me , shes scolding my brother , or shes fighting with my father. ):

anyway , on a lighter note , i've been concentrating well in class recently! like i can absorb and understand what the teacher is saying. yay. =D on tuesday , ms lim was in a bad mood. and she went around checking everyone's homework. and she chased lots of people out of class for not doing homework. hai. she scolded alina too. and she wants alina to drop geog. i think shes going to be in a bad mood tomorrow too. and she wants to check our files. DIE. i havent even checked my file yet. all the best to me tomorrow.
CCA today was okay. vanessa and charlene left early. and so laoshi taught us about production schedules. we had to make our own. and i was laughing nonstop. thanks to kei and klaryssa(?) la. they were drawing some stupid stuff that turned out retarded. super funny. i had to walk home alone today! haha. okay. i have nothing more to say. =DDDD

Monday, August 13, 2007 ; 9:09 PM♥

LOVE.<33

ITS MONDAYY. ):
im super not used to school. i was daydreaming the whole day , and i didnt really pay full attention to all lessons. i feel super super guilty.
and to make things worse, i got back my progress card today. i failed 4 tests altogether. and its really horrible la. i really wanted to cry. but , i know i really didnt put in effort for all my tests.
and, i really dont know how to show my report card to my parents. they're going to scold me like mad. and , they're gonna be super disappointed. i really dont want to make them disappointed. ahhhhhhhhh. ):

on a lighter note, FAITHFUL-NEST MADE IT TO THE FINALS OF SWORD EXCHANGE. i love faithful-nest! the results will be out next week. and it doesnt really matter who wins. cos we had FUN , we studied so hard , and we made it! =D i love my faithful-nest darlings. =DDDD
and. i really dunno whats happening now. everything is going siao. my heart feels super heavy. like a rock. and it really aches whenever i think of that problem. i dont even think you care. so why am i caring so much? i really really wish i can stop thinking about the same thing every hour of the day. its really really painful. ):

Thursday, August 09, 2007 ; 11:07 AM♥

LOVE.<33

Creative competition on tuesday went WELL. okay , so me and vanessa was only supposed to go hall to check on them , but in the end we did help out quite alot. i ran around like a siao woman la. but in the end , everything went well , except for abit of feedback. that one cannot be helped la. yups =D i just wasnt in a very good mood on tuesday la , so whoever i irritated , IM SORRY. i dont know why im so moody nowadays okay. especially in school.
yesterday , i went for day of His power! (: it was great great great! before that , me and eunice went to walkwalk at bedok pasar malam. I LOVE PASAR MALAMS. i bought so much random stuff until i didnt have a single cent left la. woohooo im going there on friday again. =DDD

and so , you say that i've been going out everyday. i guess you just focus on all the things you think that are bad. all the effort i put into studying , just so you could understand , has gone down the drain hasn't it? haven't you thought , that when i go out , its always for a purpose? its not like i randomly go out just because i dont want to stay at home. and , these stuff always only happens once a year. ONCE A YEAR. is it too much to ask you for permission? and you act like i owe you alot. i just want to say , you guys are my parents , and i just dont understand whats been happening these few days. i cry myself to sleep every night just because of you , and i dont even think you bother. why cant it be like before , when you would love me with no doubts? now , all you want is for me to study. is studying EVERYTHING? i have really tried 101% to honour you and submit to you , but you just keep making it more and more difficult. and now i dont even dare ask you for more. i guess thats how its going to be huh.

OKAY. finished ranting. ahhh ignore me. im having weirdo moodswings. =D

Monday, August 06, 2007 ; 9:30 PM♥

LOVE.<33

IM SO HIGH NOW! faithful-nest got into the second round of SWORD EXCHANGE! i love my faithful-nest darlings! we'll do our best for God yea? ((: GO FAITHFUL-NEST! =DD
today was a great day. im just looking forward to the national day holidays la. woo cant wait ~ mrs loke was absent today. and shes gonna be absent for this whole week i heard , which means no history tmr? XD during assembly , had some maths quiz thing. its interclass competition , and 3/7 WON the comp! ((: go 3/7! me and vanessa were screaming like siao. =DD
and CCA, only me and vanessa turned up. michelle hurt her back , and the rest i dunno where they go. haha. so vanessa was stressing , and i just stoned for so many hours. did equalizer stuff , then went home.
okay. some stuff has been bothering me recently. like family problems. i dunno la. but i know God will help me. (: and , the SAME THING is still on my mind. i dont know why i just cant knock it out of my brain. i dont want to think about it anymore. i really really dont. but i guess theres nothing i can do. just let nature take its course?
yup. i shall STOP here. happy national day everybodyy! =DDD

Wednesday, August 01, 2007 ; 8:16 PM♥

LOVE.<33

and one more month has passed. =D
okay i dont know why im so happy now! so i havent blogged for almost a week. haha. just had no mood to blog. CCA was fine today! we watched some video stuff. and i was freezing like ice in the computer lab. super super cold! and thanks elysebeth for messaging me uh. you're such an entertainment. =DD
i cant wait for FOP! i really really hope i can go. and i hope bestfriend can go too! its gonna be soso much fun! ohoh , this saturday is the first round of SWORDEXCHANGE. and i havent finished memorizing the verses. but i know im doing it not with my own strength , but with the strength of GOD! and yes , faithful-nest can do it! =D and recently , i've been reading taming the tiger. i know im slow la. hehe. and it just occured to me once more how God is always right beside me , and yet its uncountable the number of times i forget that He's there. like when i have troubles , problems or im happy over something , God is not the first person i would go to. and i end up feeling guilty , but not doing anything about it at all. sometimes im just not letting God into my life. im really really and truly sorry God. ):
the same usual problems are troubling me once more. why cant i just forget? i feel emo at times , and at other times , i feel ULTRA high. i feel so unstable okay. and i cant do anything about it.
another note , i've fallen in love with superjunior all over again. donghae my <33. (: