the sweetest love story ever. ((:

Friday, January 25, 2008 ; 7:00 PM♥

LOVE.<33

i thought about everything last night.
and sometimes i get pissed with myself for forgetting that God is always there for me. no matter what i do , how bad i perform , Hes always there for me.
and i feel really guilty because i take Him for granted so many times.
and i'm really sorry God , that i've not been a good person and all. i know how much i might have disappointed you. and so , from now on i'm going to have faith in Him.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

There , God has been reminding me that He has a plan for me , that i should not worry , that i should just give my best.
and thats what i'm going to do. im gna do my best for God , and have faith. (:

Thursday, January 24, 2008 ; 7:45 PM♥

LOVE.<33

today was such an irritating day.
first , it was thursday , which meant our timetable was long and tiring. who ever dreamt of putting history , geog , and social studies into the timetable all in a straight row man! that means 2.5 hours of HUMANITIES. and naturally , my small sized brain couldnt absorb much. T_T
to top it off , there was o level results today , which made me panic like siao even though i wasnt the one getting the results. and to finish everything off , CCA almost made me cry.

okay so some people might think im stupid , since whatever happened didnt concern me. but one thing i hate is to see people disagree and quarrel about stuff that will soon blow up into something big when it could be solved normally without having to burst all that blood vessels. look , listening to all of the shouting , screaming and everything just made me have a headache. how i wish i could have just run out , slam the door and go bury myself somewhere.
seriously , it might not seem like a big deal to most people , but it IS a big deal to me. asking me to comment or thrash things out about something that is practically nothing when both sides could be more understanding , IS a big deal to me. i felt terrible then , and all i wanted to do was just burst into tears on the spot. how much it took me not to cry in front of the whole CCA and embarass myself.
you know , our CCA was NEVER into such a big and tangly mess before. why it became like that , was because people couldnt agree on things. and because some people's attitudes just SUCK. fullstop. when you think youre the only one in the whole entire wide world that is correct , thats when you bring trouble to yourself and others. screaming and shouting and thinking youre so clever and that others are plain stupid will NOT get you out of matters. in fact , its making things worse. why cant you spare a thought for others?is a simple sorry so hard to say? if you made a mistake , learn from that mistake , not blame it on everybody except yourself. all you care about is yourself. and whatever was said , i dont think it got through to your thick skull and brain. if you dont like our CCA , just get lost. no one is forcing you to stay , no one will feel any loss. since all you do is sit there and do your own stuff. if you happen to read this , which is really unlikely , please dont feel offended or whatever. because do you think i will care? whatever i have typed is TRUE , whether you like it or not. come get people to beat me up , slap me or anything , youre welcome to do so.

its people like you who spoil everyone's day. and thanks veryveryvery much for spoiling my day. i love you so much for making me feel like crying. i havent felt like that in a LONG time.

Monday, January 14, 2008 ; 9:40 PM♥

LOVE.<33

DEWAINE! =D
see?
im dedicating this post specially to you. i really really really thank God that i have such a great friend like you.
even though you said you didnt help me at all , and you were making things worse , its really really the opposite.
what you said made me think so much of what i was worrying about.
and after that i found myself really stupid for worrying about something that was actually nothing. and its not worth it at all.
so , thanks thanks thanks very very much dewaine dear , i love youuuuuuuuuuuu alotttt. =D

im like randomly starting to worry about stupid stuff again. i dont know why these stupid random thoughts just slam into my brain and make me worry the whole day and night until i cant sleep , eat , concentrate in class and everything. its so frustrating until i feel like exploding.
so , from now on , im just gonna push all this rubbish out of my brain and out of my life.
what my friends told me were right. why should i worry when you probably dont even know or care whats going on? i've been stupid i know , but as dewaine says , being a fool once over is better than being a fool your entire life. so , bye to all you stupid problems. =D

and once again , THANKS SO MUCH DEWAINE DEARRRR =D
i'll forget you , and everything you once were to me. i'll not care so much , cos it doesnt matter anymore. =DDDD

Friday, January 11, 2008 ; 5:10 PM♥

LOVE.<33

the title for this post holds a very important meaning , but you ppl [ who are reading this ] cant see it. =P
i havent blogged in such a long time.
and many stuff happened! and i really cannot believe now is 2008 alr. which also means OLEVEL YEARRRRRR. im irritated by the way everyone , which is really EVERYONEEEEEE seems to be talking about olevels like its the new trend or smth. teachers , parents , friends , everyoneeeee! makes me super stressed and cant concentrate properly and worry unnecessarily. ):

i really miss 2007. i have to say , its been one of the most enjoyable years i had. how God has been super good to me , showing and teaching me new stuff , and how He showed me that no matter how far i stray , He'll always be there waiting with open arms for me. and i really really really really thank Him for that. (:

anyway , teachers have been nicer and more hilarious this year. especially mr quek and his lame stuff. now i know i'm typing but i'm not actually touching the keyboard. if the atoms on my fingers and the keyboard touch , there'll be nuclear explosion. HAHAHA. and how he told us abt this guy working at the cemetary raped this DEADDD girl until she came back to life. ' her eyes just popped open ' and our whole class laughed like siaoooo. this equation [V= RI] stands for very retarded idiot according to him. its some physics formula that i have no idea about. HAHAHA. okay. i dunno why i'm blogging but i just felt like blogging. okay. it most probably will be a long time before i blog again. BYEBYE! =D
OHHHH , the school is super last minute and INEFFICIENT by the way. PM aren't your slaves or servants , we aren't robots , PLEASE learn to tell us things in advance when you need help. thankyouverymuchhhh.
love is such a confusing thing.