the sweetest love story ever. ((:

Friday, September 28, 2007 ; 10:16 PM♥

LOVE.<33

LAST DAY OF THE WEEK! its friday already! and next week is already exam. i cannot believe how time flies. =D very soon , it will be after exams , then EOY holidays! and next year , prelims and O LEVELS. ohnooo , im looking too far ahead. must get past this years EOY exams first.
i am HAPPPPY with myself this week. all the tests i got back , i got surprisingly good results. i cannot believe myself. but Thank God for all my good results , and also for my not so good results.
for the first time ever , i got 9/10 for amaths. i know it doesnt count cos the paper was easy , but I FELT SO ACCOMPLISHED. i wish i could score as good for amaths EOY exam. so i shall work very hard for the next 2 weeks! for emaths , got back trigo tests. quite high marks for both papers , but all the careless mistakes made me lose alot of marks! social studies SBQ , 6/7. YAY. my SS is usually very lousy and all , so i was super happy. todays chemistry test , 10/14! not so good , but still , YAY! =D okay. i really really really really thank God for all the good marks. cos i guess it helps raise my confidence for the exams? surprisingly , i dont feel scared or anything. i feel PREPARED. but in actual fact , im not 100% prepared yet. so i shall go study NOW.

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR THE END OF YEAR EXAMS/O LEVELS/ANYTHING TYPE OF EXAMS! =DD

Tuesday, September 25, 2007 ; 6:52 PM♥

LOVE.<33

i have sorted all my thoughts out already.
i know i must honour my parents , and its the right thing to do.
so however angry they might make me , i have made up my mind to try my very best not to get angry with them , but honour them , because that is what God wants. plus , i hate being so emo and depressed. so from now on , i shall just cheer up and depend on God. =D

school has been very draggy. everyday , go school , study , go home , study somemore , then sleep. its the same every single day. but its only one more week to the END OF YEAR EXAM. and , i still dont seem to be studying. i just cannot concentrate. especialy when eams are nearing. RAWR. i know i should get off the computer and mug and cram everything into my brain , but i just cant do it.
OH. during CME today , ms tan let us watch some inspirational video thing. so as usual , i was stoning. suddenly , a familiar song started playing , 'i can only imagine' . i started to wake up , and found it familiar. and suddenly it hit me. God was just speaking to me throughout the song. and i suddenly felt this sense of peace and joy and happiness! its like , He was telling me not to worry about anything , and count on Him , for He will see me through. so after that , i was very very happy and high throughout the whole day. thank you God for being there for me. i know i have ignored you and continued being sad and emo and all. but now , i'll listen to you , cos i know that You'll always be there for me! =D

Saturday, September 22, 2007 ; 10:55 PM♥

LOVE.<33

i wonder what is wrong with me. as each day passes , more and more problems there are. first , family problems are getting worser and worser. i never fail to quarrel with my parents every single day. i just dont know whats wrong. a family is supposed to be supportive and encourage one another. but does my family do that? no. all they do is insult me and make me feel like an idiot. fine , i admit , i've not been serious in my work. but at least , i have made an effort to start. its really difficult you know , and all you guys do is insist that i study hard and do very well. im not a robot who can give you what you want. im a human too , and no one is perfect except God. you always said , as long as you tried your best , its okay. but when the results come , all you talk about is what a big embarassment i am. that other people can do so much better than me. that im such a failure because i cant pass everything. i get it. i know im not the smartest person on earth , but im studying not for you. its for myself and its for God. soo , next time , before you say any hurting stuff right to my face , please please please remember that i am already trying my very best. and if youre not happy with me , then im really sorry that i failed to meet your expectations.

i finished ranting. i know its been one week since my birthday has passed , but i have just one birthday wish. i wish that my family will consist of hapiness , laughter , joy , peace , trust and love. thats all i really and truly want.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007 ; 6:36 PM♥

LOVE.<33

ITS MIDWEEK ALREADY! =DDD

i think im really unproductive at school. all i do is stone or sleep in class. i really have no mood to study anymore! but i guess i have no choice la. haha. i wish these two weeks will pass faster , so that it'll be exams soon. it sounds crazy , but i really think that im not learning anything in class. so whats the point right?

yesterday , i went to study with wanxin at the airport! it was FUN! managed to concentrate , and i finished all my physics homework and one chapter in the textbook too. after that , decided to walk around the airport. we went to the place to see the aeroplanes take off. it was so beautiful i wanted to go overseas there and then. HAHA. then we randomly walked around and around. something embarassing happened at macdonalds! i dropped my ice cream on the floor , and it made this super loud PIAK sound. good thing no one was around , or i would have died of embarassment okay.

after that , waited for wanxin's parents to come , and they fetched me home. haha. nothing is going through my brain now as usual , so i guess i'll stop here. BYE =D

Sunday, September 16, 2007 ; 7:34 PM♥

LOVE.<33

today was a great day! no tuition cos teacher was busy. (:
so i went to church to meet my parents for lunch. we went to telok kurau i think , to eat. the food there is really really nice! so after that , i thought we were going home , but my father's friend wanted to bring us somewhere to eat chicken wings. in the end , we got lost at the seletar camp place there. u-turned about 6 times. and im really really surprised at the houses there. its like literally another country. it didnt even really seem like singapore anymore. it was like a countryside , with those bungalows and all. and since i never ever been there before , all i could do was admire the beauty around me. sounds cliche i know , but it was really really beautiful and amazing. the best part was that , we got to this airbase , seletar airport there i think. there were private jets there. like alot of them. and it was just very awesome. in the end , we found the chicken wing place , but it was closed. but at least we got to see all the beautiful scenery! so the trip was worthwhile after all. =D
later in the evening , i went to the reservoir to jog! it has been sometime since the last time i've went there , and its still as peaceful as ever. half walked , half jogged and half ran , and we completed one round of the reservoir. =D walked a longlong way that i never knew existed back home. and it began to rain. im starting to love rain alot. i really really thank God for the wonderful day that He gave me today. i really enjoyed it. =DD
i just want to say that there is no way i can express how much I LOVE FAITHFUL-NEST! they had a mini celebration for me yesterday. and it really brightened my day , especially since the day started off not quite well. thank you guys! =DDD
I LOVE MY FAITHFUL-NEST DARLINGS ALOTALOTALOTALOT! =DDDD

Thursday, September 13, 2007 ; 5:11 PM♥

LOVE.<33

yes! i managed to pass through thursday! surprisingly , today was quite okay. GY , stoned because it wasnt our groups' turn to present yet. geography , ms lim only called me once today. and i knew how to answer her waterfall question. =DDDD so i was in quite a good mood. chinese , sat alone cos vanessa didnt come. i felt like such a loner. but i talked to annalisa and jaclyn , who were behind me. =D and the time passed quite fast.
physics , managed to understand everything that was taught. YAY. its rare that i even manage to concentrate in physics class. emaths was as usual , super boring. the rate that she goes at is so SLOWWW , i can just fall asleep in class already la. SS , even more boring. just stoned for 2 whole periods.
ITS FRIDAY TOMORROW ITS FRIDAY TOMORROW! im so so so happy. first week of term 4 is almost overrr! but it also means one more week nearer to the exams. =DD got to start studying already.

everything is MY FAULT. dont worry , just blame me for everything. anyway , whatever i say now will be meaningless right. i bet youre happy now.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007 ; 8:49 PM♥

LOVE.<33

so far , this week has been quite productive! monday , was super slack. mr poh did not come for lessons , and there was homeroom and assembly. CCA , was quite frustrating. i really really cannot understand some people la. just give others a chance you know. dont always follow what you want , and pleaseee consider the feelings of others.
tuesday , fell sick and had sore throat. became worse in school. so i sounded very weird. i managed to concentrate in most lessons , and geog was as usual. ms lim called me 2 times. first , to ask me to stop writing. second , to ask me to explain some stuff to the class. arghhhh.
today was an okay day. in the morning , there was pure bio standard test , and since i dropped bio already , went to the next door class to do self study. i was telling constance how my voice really sounded like some chicken today , and by the end of the period , she had a bit of sore throat too. and claimed that i passed it to her! haha. for emaths , mrs lim didnt come , we had to do this worksheet. i managed to do most of the questions , except for some which i dont understand. i found out i dont really know bearings. ):
CCA was in computer lab 3. quite fun la. laoshi called me SHORT. i know im short la , but it was super super embarassing! everyone , like the whole CCA was laughing at me okay. he made me write at the lower part of the whiteboard. then when i called him lame after that for only singing one random line of some random song , he went ' you're gonna be the first one i write testimonials for okay' cos he wants to write that i called him lame. super lame hor? HAHA i dont know what im talking.

OHHH. just now there were tremors. the house was swaying. actually SWAYING. super scary. my whole family went downstairs , and found out that many other residents also went downstairs. waited a while for the tremors to stop. and i prayed nonstop. God really really works in our lives. (: after praying , the security guard announced that it was safe to go up already. thank you thank you Lord =D

Saturday, September 08, 2007 ; 10:36 AM♥

LOVE.<33

im so sad that the holidays are ending soon. ):
alot happened this week. and i keep falling sick recently. ): i didnt go to school for tutorial yesterday because i was sick with fever and sore throat. and now my throat is still hurting BADLY. i dont know whats wrong with it laaa.
i feel superrrr unproductive. even though i studied more than i would on normal school days. i havent finished my holiday homework. and i bet there is homework that i didnt even know existed. haha (:
OHHHHH , GOOD NEWS GOOD NEWS. MY BROTHER CAME BACK FROM SHANGHAI ALREADY. im so happy happy happpppppy! when he wasnt around , the house was so empty and quiet and all. but now hes back , its like a complete change. HAHA. and he was exceptionally nice to me last night. he bought me a toy pig that can stick to the wall. =DDD heeeheeeee. ahhhh i lovelovelove my brother laaaa. =D and i went to make purple specs. i cannot wait to wear them. theyre so cooool la. (: haha. i dont know what to blog about anymore. too happy + sad + excited for i dunno what reason.
did i mention already , that i LOVEEEEE the holidays lots. =D

Monday, September 03, 2007 ; 8:04 PM♥

LOVE.<33

YAYYY! holidays have finally come. i love to sleep late and wake up late. yayyy. =D
oh , and im HIGH! XD after last night's radical , which was GREAT! =D i think at the beginning , everyone wasnt that high yet. but when they went in front of the stage , everyone became super ultra high! we were doing duty , so didnt get to jump. but we enjoyed ourselves also! last part was super funny. when it was supposed to be the end already , samchin kept playing another song. it happened like 4 times! we were behind laughing like siao. super super funny. i cant wait for radical again! next year. and i want normal service every week to be like that. =DD thank God for radical and the lively lively atmosphere. =DDD

and i have been feeling very motivated suddenly. i just feel like studying and studying and studying. i dunno whats wrong with me. maybe its because the exams are only a month away. i keep thinking of what i will do after the exams. probably go out alot and PLAY! yesyes , i cant wait for the exams to be OVER. yup. im studying physics and geography with susanna tonight! wish me all the best! =D