Tuesday, April 22, 2008 ; 10:27 PM♥
LOVE.<33
I . AM . GOING . CRAZY. seriously seriously crazy.
i can barely do differentiation questions.
to make things worse , tmr is the test alr.
and i desperately need to pass , at least this once. ):
i cant stand being able to memorize everything and understand the question , but when its new numbers or phrased in a different way , my brain just goes blank again. i hate this frustrating feeling. and i came on specially to rant.
*anyway , someone ruined my day AGAIN. i was alright with her alr , but after today , she just proves that shes the worst person i could ever meet. not like i had a choice to meet her or smth. i cant wait to leave sch ,, then i wont be able to see her face. thinking her skin is so THIN , its actually like 100 times thicker than mine. =.= whatever to her , i dont need a teacher like her. and yea , im super happy that i pissed her off. =.= *
* this paragraph was sarcastic , since her skin is so thin , how could she possibly be all that horrid? whateverrr.
anyway , i shall go off now. =D
BYE! (:
Sunday, April 20, 2008 ; 4:23 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Italy. (:I shall work hard and earn money , then in the future i'll be able to move to a beautiful place and have a carefree life with an enjoyable job. (:
Mid Years are a week away. I hope it will pass by quickly. And i shall be motivated by ben&jerrys. (:
actually i wna blog about smth , but i forgot what i wanted to blog abt. so i think this is quite a useless post. i shall be hardworking and study abit now. Oh , did i mention im studying italian now! its such a superly beautiful language la. (:
Arrivederla. (:
Sunday, April 13, 2008 ; 6:59 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Yesterday was WorshipCentralConference08. and it was really a great great great great experience for me. and I don't regret one bit about going for it. How God spoke to me , and how he showed me what it means to love and obey Him. and when we were singing the songs , all I could think of was how Jesus died on the cross for me , just to pay for my sins. How helpless i am , but how much He loved me , no matter how imperfect i am , and how often i make Him angry when I do things to upset Him. During worship , I just poured everything out to Him. how i had forgotten that all this while i was struggling with so many problems at one time , He was there for me. When he wanted to be the first in my life , I pushed Him away. When He wanted me to confide in Him , i turned to other people.And all I could say to Him was ' I'm sorry. ' I realised all this while , no matter how terrible I feel , or how huge the problem i'm facing is , there will always be a Father who loves me so much that He died for me , just so I could live. and I could never be thankful enough.
So what did I learn yesterday? To summarise it all , what I learnt really applied to me alot. Often , I narrow worship down to just singing , jumping and the songs we sing in church. I always forget worship is a whole lot more than just the songs we sing to praise Jesus. That's only a portion of the meaning of worship. God showed me that worship is to have an intimate encounter with Him. When we come before Him as we are , when we admit our weaknesses to Him , when we acknowledge that He is Lord above all , and when we are responding to Him.
Usually , when I worship God , there will be alot of stuff on my mind. And then I can't concentrate properly on speaking to Him. So I realised one important thing is to clear whatever is on your mind when you are worshipping God , and focus only on Him.
Lastly , worship is not a 'once a week' thing. This is one thing I always forget. During the course of the week , we should not neglect God , but instead prepare ourselves spiritually for worship. Worship isn't short term , its a long journey with Jesus. =D
Okay , that's pretty much the gist of what I have learnt yesterday. and I realised how much it impacted me. Thank you dear Lord Jesus . =DDDD
Sunday, April 06, 2008 ; 6:57 PM♥
LOVE.<33
MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL.even though i love money , i HATE it now. to the core.
my parents are starting their quarreling thingy all over again.
these few days , they quarrel over EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING. and i'm super super angry with them. like every small thing.
i dont know why this is happening. and the more they quarrel , the more i dont wna talk to them. i feel so far away from them now. i cant communicate with them properly. and i just dont want to talk to them or face them anymore.
RAWR. all i can do now is depend on God . and i trust that He will give me the strength to face them. the more i see them i get more irritated. and i feel terrible.
whatever they quarrel about , it all boils down to MONEY. why must it be the cause of everything?
anyway i have no more mood to blog. i just blogged because i felt too angry. and all i feel like doing now is going out and never ever comingback to this house again. sorry for the moodiness. ):
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 ; 7:58 PM♥
LOVE.<33
HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY. MUIMUI DID NOT COME FOR LESSONS.
i was so happy i could have jumped down the stairs. HAHAHAHA. but being the weirdo she is , she still assigned us work . LOTS OF WORK , but heck , as long as i dont see i am A HAPPY PERSON. =D
somemore we aren't seeing her tomorrow and on friday. AHHHHHHHH i cannot believe that we are so fortunate. and i wont have to see her face the whole of this week. hurray hurray. actually , i didnt see her the whole of this week because i was absent from school yesterday. ONE WHOLE WEEK OF NO MUIMUI. i am delighted. =D
anyway , I REALLY WANT TO GO SHOPPING. i know i sound like a bimbo , but haha. hinthint to anyone who reads this ^^
hahahaha i have nothing to blog about. just felt like blogging because im extremely happy today.
byebye. (:
