Tuesday, February 26, 2008 ; 8:44 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Cola darling , even though you're not with us anymore , you'll be forever remembered by every single one of us here on earth. i miss you loads , but i'm happy to know that you're in Heaven with Jesus , and i know for sure you're happier there than you were on earth. =Di know i havent been blogging for long , too much stuff has been going on in my life. both good and bad stuff. last week was camp corri , and so we missed half a week of actual lessons , which was replaced by lectures , lectures and more lectures at TP. but , it was much more fun than actual lessons , so i shall not complain. anyway , for a detailed account of what we did , go visit dewaine's blog , 52trashbins.lj (:
time passes so fast its alr end of february. and soon it'll be march , april blahblah then O LEVELS. why must time pass so fast. T_T
we did registration for olevel subjs today. and i have to work extra hard because i dont wna waste all that money put into the exam papers. from today until sudnay , i shall read more chinese books because chinese MYE is next monday. how quick is that?! and seeing how bad my chinese is , i really have to buck up loads more.
anyway , my brain is so super messed up now. actually i dno what im actually worrying abt. its like lots of things jumbled into one big hugeeeeeeeee problem. and now , i really really really need God's strength to be with me now and help me pass this weird/bad/whatever time now. and i know God has a plan for me. so please desiree stop stop stop worrying for once. =/ i'll leave things to happen on its own , according to God's will. and i think i'll stop here for now la. hees. BYEEEEE =D
iloveyoualot.afterallthedramathathasbeenhappening,ireaslisedhowmuchithinkaboutyouaday.beforetheincident,i didntreallybothermuch,butiknowyouvebeennicetomethepastfewdays.andithinkihaventgottenoveryouyet.thisincident
hastriggeredmorefeelingsiguess.andtheonlythingtodonowiswaitandsee.ihopeyoudoreturnthefeelings,butihighlydoubt
that.anyway, ijustwantyoutoknowthatireallyreallyloveyou.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008 ; 9:48 PM♥
LOVE.<33
Dear Jesus ,i pray that you will heal Cola of whatever he's suffering from.
even the vet at the clinic couldn't tell what was wrong with him.
and we have to bring him to the hospital to be X-rayed to find out what's wrong with him.
since he's old , it could be many sicknesses.
and i am really really ultra super worried right now.
i owrry about him every single second. and i keep imagining the worst stuffs happening.
i know i should not be worrying , cause everything is in Your hands , O Lord.
what i badly want to do now is to stop worrying , to trust and have faith that You'll heal my darling Cola of whatever he's suffering now.
i pray that when i look at him , he wont look so miserable and sad anymore. i pray that when i look at him , i won't feel my heart breaking all over again. i know he will get well , and that would be well worth all the tears i have cried these past few days.
Please Lord , may Your healing spirit be upon him , and may he get well soon.
Thank you ,
In Jesus most precious name ,
Amen.
Friday, February 15, 2008 ; 9:04 PM♥
LOVE.<33
i just found out that NO ONE seems to care about cola other than me in this house.
they're all just assuming that he's gna die so its not worth it spending money to bring him to see a vet?
i mean cmon , hes a living thing. how would you guys feel if everyone ignores you when you're sick in the future? if you dont like it , what makes you think an animal likes it?
hes in great pain now , but i bet i'm the only one who's feeling all stressed , emo and heartbroken for him.
the truth is , NONE OF YOU BOTHER. and i shan't care anymore.
heck it , since its such a burden.
money's more important , so just save it.
its enough that i care for him , yea right. i didnt imagine you guys would be THAT uncaring.
well , relax , you guys dont have to fork out a SINGLE CENT. i'll pay for everything. i'm sure you all are happy now.
; 5:07 PM♥
LOVE.<33
DESIREE IS SAD. for the first time in many days. why , you may ask?
MY DOG IS SICK.
when i was on the way home just now , i got a call from my auntie , calling me to come home quick. she said my dog was super sick , and he looked like he was going to die. i was suepr shocked , and i rusheddddd home. (yes i took cab)
i practically ran all the way to the door la. then i saw my darlingg cola lying on his bed. and never in my life had i seen him look so weak and poor. he was shivering , and he just lay there.
and i promise , my heart just shattered into like 128741862478164186 pieces.
he looks abit better now , but i really dont know whats going to happen. all i can do now is pray for him and trust that God will heal him. i dont want him to go just yet , i love him too much.
so everyone who is reading my blog ( if there is anyone ) , please please pleaseeeee stop for a moment and pray for Cola ? i'll really really reallllly appreciate it alot. thankyouuuu. =D
and i dont really have the mood to continue this post anymore. my tears are gna like pour out any moment so i guess i'll just stop here.
Thursday, February 14, 2008 ; 8:17 PM♥
LOVE.<33
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO EVERYONE! (:even though today was spoilt at the end by some people , it was still a very very very happy day for me.
firstly , i got alot of sweets and chocolates and nicenice sweet things , which made me super happy and high. so now im in a GOOD MOOD (:
whenever i look at the stuff , i just wna scream with happiness. heees. (:
so THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to everyone who gave me stuff! (:
anyway , i saw something in the daily bread that made me even happier. i realise , that however bad the day has been , God will be at your side to cheer you up at the end of the day. a few days ago , i read this particular page , and on it , there was the meaning of love. not just ordinary love , but God's love for us. and i instantly felt happy. shall type it here. =D
For God so loVed the world ,
That He gAve
His onLy
BegottEn
SoN
That whoever
Believes In Him
Should Not perish,
But have Everlasting life.
John 3:16. spot the words?
the Bible is the greatest love note of all. and how could i ever ask for anything more? thank you dear God (:
iloveyouyouyouyandonlyyou.(:ijustwishyouknew.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008 ; 8:04 PM♥
LOVE.<33
MY TWO BESTIES , DEWAINE AND CONSTANCE. (:
vanessa . send me your picture so i can edit leh.=D
OKAY! =D havent posted in afew days.
and i really have nothing to talk about. but constance wants me to blog , so here i am. =D
today , our japanese sister school came to visit us. and they are really cute and all! in all pictures , they have one standard pose only. =D and they sang a song for us! super nice and sweet. and their principal and VP are soooo cute. (:
i followed vanessa and natasha to eastpoint today! and i managed to come home all by myself. i was super afraid i'd get lost or something la. but yay , i reached home in the end.
and we got back chinese standard test today. guess what , i passed ON THE DOT. 15/30. greatt la. but at least i passed CHINESE. =D so thank God.
this week is full of tests. tomorrow there is amaths standard test. thursday history test and friday SS test. to top it off , i have school until 6.30 on valentines day. not like it makes a difference in the first place. =/
but yay! i love FT ISLAND all over again. =D
somehowihavethefeelingthatiminlovewithyoualloveragain.provemewrongplease.=/
Sunday, February 10, 2008 ; 6:42 PM♥
LOVE.<33
I AM SO HAPPY TODAY. =Dfor the first time ever , i practised amaths BY MYSELF. usually , i'll wait for homework to come , then i'll start doing. but this time was different. even though i only did AFEW questions. but at least i did! its a start i guess. =D
from now on , i will start learning how not to be jealous of anyone and anything. yesterday's sermon was great. =D and i love how each sermon teaches me to be better. especially since i tend to sin alot without knowing it. so , from now on i will try not to complain too much and not to be jealous of other people. YAY =D
TOMORROW is back to school again. ): and i thank God for the longlonglonglonggggg break from wednesday till today. even though i want moreee holidays , i have to face it right? i just hope i dont sleep and stone in class like i always used to do. everytime i wna concentrate , i end up doing something else or getting distracted. so , i hopeeeee this week will be different? =D
and , tmr is such a longgggg day. but i'm happy theres no more amaths tutorial after sch on mondays anymore. cos i'll just stone in class and not listen. maybe study sessions will be better for me? =D
ohh , and thanks danielle chong for blogging about me. so nice uh you. =D but i blogged about you first. hees. i have nothing else to blog alr. my brain is stoning.
anyway , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH LEONG. (:
Friday, February 08, 2008 ; 10:39 PM♥
LOVE.<33
charissa and me. =DHELLOHELLOHELLO! =D
CNY day 2 was spent at my grandma's house. (mother's side)
at first things were super stoned.
in the morning , charissa and clement came over.
played wolfteam , and i still suck at it. alot. but im improving! =D
anyway , then reached there , tessa is superrrr cute and energetic.
stoned at the tv , ate lunch. the abalone super nice. =D
had a camwhoring session. everytime im with charissa , i'll take super alot of photos.
and today , i was happy cause all my photos turned out not so bad. got alot of self-taken pics , so i wont put here. =P
anyway , i think the pic up there is super super super nice. okay , the nicest out of all. my cousin super pretty can. =D
anyway , gna end this post soon , cos danielle's going gambling. and i want her to read this post and TAG first before she goes off. she made me post about her , but since shes posting about me back , i dont mind.
okay. i dno what nice things to say.
anyway , she admitted she loves me. but she hasnt said it in person yet. *HUGEHINTTTT*
i hope she gets this hint , cos shes super blind , and didnt get it until , hopefully now. =D
danielle , be happy i posted about you , i rarely post about people okay. you should know what to do now hor. =P
OKAY BYE! =D
Thursday, February 07, 2008 ; 6:01 PM♥
LOVE.<33
I LOVE MY BROTHER ALOT (:
this picture was taken at my ahma's house.
got lots of other pictures as well , but i'll post them up somewhere else and some other time. =D
heeees.
i am happy happy today. =D
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 ; 4:28 PM♥
LOVE.<33
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE! =Di am very happy today , because CNY show turned out quite well , despite yesterday's rehearsal not going that well. but its over , so i shall put the past behind me. =D anyway , even though today was tiring , i guess it went okay. no screwups or anything.
what upsets me is that the school NEVER EVER appreciates us for anything. okay except one or two teachers who occasionally praise us , other than that , nothing at all. im quite used to it , but i feel that its just respect to thank us after we have done so much for you. but since everyone thinks we are unimportant anyway , nevermind =D we dont think we are not important at all. imagine if we ever go on strike , the whole school will be screwed.
AFTER SCHOOL , i went rollerblading with constance. with how little experience i had after not blading for about a year? i fell TWICE. which is =DDDD for me. because previously , i would have at least fallen down 10 times after 10 minutes of blading. so yay. =D we bladed for about 2 hours i think. and i hope i have burned off some fats. and i wna go blading again soon! =D today was fun fun fun fun! and sadly , i owe constance an icecream because i didnt fall down 10 times or more.
i think the appreciate-what-you-have-and-not-complain method i'm practicing now has helped me to become more cheerful , more happy and generally not so grouchy and emo. and i'm like being my random self again , which i'm glad about. =D i hope it stays this way.
anyway , im confused now. over stuffffff. and the feeling's just burning. =D or D= i dont know.
i'll wait and see what happens next , its most likely i can't control my own feelings at all. =/
Sunday, February 03, 2008 ; 4:26 PM♥
LOVE.<33
I AM FEELING RIDICULOUSLY HAPPY! (((((((((:okay , i also dont know why the sudden burst of happiness.
maybe its cos i have regained my long lost favourite hobby of SLEEPING. (:
i find myself sleeping so much more often now , and dont call me pig , cos i sleep because im sleep deprived. and i cannot stand being sleep-deprived. if i dont have much sleep , i'll become moody the whole day and be grumpy , and people will start to hate me. =D so YAYYYYYYY to sleeping randomly again! =D
okay i typed all the nonsense above cos i was elated that i just had a nice nice long undisturbed nap. usually , when i sleep , i keep getting randomly woke up by random people for nothing. i shall not talk about sleeping anymore (:
constance asked me to blog more , but i have nothing to blog about. no more complaints since what i learnt from sermon yesterday had a big impact on me. why should i complain so much when i have a house , good food , family , friends , school and so many luxuries , like computer , phone , good food[again] , hamsters , dog , blahblah and the list goes on cos theres just too many to be named. despite having these things , i still find stuff to complain about. and looking back at it , it really seems stupid. i sound like a spoilt brat . and thats not gna help me in any way. so from now on , i MUST try to appreciate what i have , which other less fortunate people do not have , and STOP complaining. (:
and , i feel the problems in my life just flew away. (: so carefreeeeeeeee now. i hope this feeling is permanent , and since there's bound to be problems in one way or another , i'll just face it happily. yay yay yay! =D
i have nothing more to say , so BYE! (:
